The Only Way Is Essex regular Joey Essex, 30, gave fans an insight into his journey of coming to terms with his mum’s death, 20 years on from her suicide. The reality star admitted he didn’t think he’d ever get over the trauma which had led to his battle with depression.
After what happened, my life was torn to pieces.
Joey’s mum Tina lost her battle to the mental illness in 2001, when Joey was 10-years-old.
He told viewers: “After what happened, my life was torn to pieces. My anxiety was through the roof, my depression.
“I used to go to hospital all the time thinking something was wrong with me. I don’t know why, I couldn’t explain it.
“It was anger I suppose. You ask yourself, ‘why, why, why’.”
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Joey Essex broke down in tears as he spoke to his therapist about his mum’s death
Joey Essex told his therapist he felt ‘trapped’ during his documentary Grief and Me
Joey Essex’s mum Tina lost her battle with depression in 2001
With the support of his family, Joey explored his trauma by visiting a therapist.
During an early session with the health professional, the reality star said he was feeling frustrated and didn’t want to speak to him.
At one point, he also told the expert he didn’t trust him and found it difficult to speak about his mum.
“I’m tired, I don’t feel like I’m getting anything,” he said.
Joey Essex said his mum’s death had torn his life to pieces
Joey Essex opened up his own anxiety and depression battle
“I’m looking at you and I’m thinking like, ‘Why should I trust you?’ It’s weird.
“For me, it’s quite frustrating,” he continued to admit.
“I’m not opening up because I feel like I’m not getting anywhere.
“This is the hardest I’ve ever had it,” he added, telling the therapist he was trying his best to open up.
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Joey’s therapist stepped in to reassure him he was “on the right track” with the session as he pointed out his feelings had been kept in for many years.
The TV star became emotional and told the expert: “I just feel trapped!”
The 30-year-old later visited his old family home where he watched videos of his mum with his sister and nan.
Joey said he thought recalling the memories would leave him emotional, but instead enjoyed it as he admitted therapy had helped.
Fans have flocked to Twitter to praise the star for his bravery this evening.
One wrote: “I love @JoeyEssex. He is really brave making #JoeyEssexGriefandMe and opening up the conversation when it comes to death.”
A second added: “My heart aches for Joey Essex. Horrendous experience for a young boy to lose his mum in such tragic circumstances.
“Really hope he can move on and find the happiness he deserves.”
In view of his 3.1 million followers this evening, he wrote: “Thank you for all the lovely messages, it really means a lot to me #griefandme.”
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